SCHOOL!

FINALLY.

My days aren't so boring.

I love school. And I already like my teachers and classes this year.

I know it's going to be hard, being in Spanish with a strict teacher and Algebra 1 Honors, but I'll live. Because I want to be something different. I won't care if people make fun of me for getting the highest grades. They're obviously jealous, so why should I care? I won't. I need a challenge.

And I love seeing everyone again. I already can tell I'm coming closer to a couple people I was hoping to this year, so I'm really excited for that. I just wish one of them wasn't going to the high school every afternoon, and wasn't leaving every Thursday.

But I have others, so I'll be fine.

And I love seeing all my little 6th grade friends. So weird. Knowing that I'm the "King of the School."

It seems like I was just in 6th grade.

BATTLE OF THE BOOKS.

It needs to start. SOON.

It will be the freaking bomb.

The Book Assassins will dominate.

. . . Probably not, but I guarantee we have more fun than any other team.

That's all I care about.

Ah. . . I can tell this year will be different. It will be better.

I cannotfreakingwait.

Wow. Nothing exciting happens in this county.

I wish I had money.

You wouldn't believe how expensive it is to buy all the songs I want on Itunes.

AHGHABAHABA.

I want new music.

Yes, I have fallen in love with, yet, another band.

Breaking Apart.

We obviously won't last forever.

I'm guessing that The Pack will go their separate ways in high school.

After last night, it was a lot of fun, but I'm starting to get irritated with the people I thought I'd be friends with for a while.

My guess is that Helen and I will stay together and Hot Tomolly and Georgina will stay together.

Rita?

It's hard to tell anything with him.

But, for now, I'll enjoy being with them, because I always have the time of my life.

I'll enjoy it while it lasts.

Haircut today......

I'm thinking I'll get something I didn't want a week ago.

Surprise people? Probably not.

They'll all care less.

I'll do it for me.

Because maybe I just need to be someone else, since it seems the current me's life is all messed up, and it will get more so when they leave.

New year.

Let's make this a better one.

Me.

I'm happy,

Sad,

Extremely mad,

For reasons that are unclear.

I want,

I need,

I cry,

I bleed

Just because I'm not ready.

I love,

I laugh,

I hate,

I scream

But still try to make the best of things.

I hope,

I dream,

Smile, and believe

For one reason: I'm only me.

I wrote this at 12:30 am. Give me SOME credit.

Lyrics.

This is ALSO what I did last night, aside from just writing down Boys Like Girls lyrics. I just wrote down lyrics that inspire me.

I dare you to move. I dare you to move. I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor. Of all the things I still remember, summer's never been the same. Years go by and time just seems to fly, but the memories remain. In the middle of September, we still play out in the rain. Nothin' to lose but everything to gain. Reflecting now on how things could've been, it was worth it in the end. If I could find you now, things would get better. We could leave this town and run forever. I know someway, somehow, we'll be together. Let your waves crash down on me and take me away. We were meant to live for so much more, but we lost ourselves. Somewhere we live inside... somewhere we live inside. We do it in the dark, with smiles on our faces. We're dropped and well concealed in secret places. We don't fight fair. Who cares if you disagree? You are not me. Who made you king of anything? So you dare tell me who to be? Who died, and made you king of anything? There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart. Sets you free. Something 'bout love that tears you up. Still believe. When the world falls down like rain, it'll bring you to your knees. This time, don't need another perfect lie. Don't care if critics never jump in line, I'm gonna give all my secrets away. Tonight, I've got you where I want you. Closer, I can tell you anything. You're the song that I sing. Tonight, let the music take us over. We'll fall into forever, all was right. 'Cause I've got you where I want you tonight.

The different colors represent different songs.

Sorry if the lyrics aren't exactly correct.

These words create my life.

Boys Like Girls lyrics.

These are not all in one song, I listened to the entire album and wrote down certain lines I liked.

We are finally free tonight. Tonight will change our lives, it's so good to be by your side. We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs and we'll feel so alive. You know you wanna just let go. Turn it up, it's five minutes to midnight. We'll make the clock stop, make your heart drop. We can make time stand still. You caught me off guard. Now I'm running and screaming. I feel like a hero, and you are my heroine. Do you know your love is sweetest thing? And I'm feeling like a newborn child every time I get the chance to see you smile. Let's spend tonight on top of the world. We can do anything, we can be anything. As real as she seems, you're only in my dreams. I have to find a way to show you I care. My heart is empty without you. Close your eyes, and I'll be by your side. I try to read between the lines. Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder. And I said, your eyes are the brightest of all the colors. I don't wanna ever love another. You'll always be my thunder, so bring on the rain. Oh, baby, bring on the pain. And listen to the thunder. I can't deny your eyes, you know I try to read between the lines. I saw a warning sign, and then you threw me up against the wall. Who said that it's better to have loved and lost? I wish that I had never loved at all. Do you want to lose it all? Do you want to learn to fly? You can't wait to fall in love. Show him what you're made of. I' m learning to fall. I can hardly breathe. It should've been me. Today is the day, the worst day of my life. You mean everything to me. Burning bridges, making wishes. I want to scream until no sound comes out and you learn your lesson. I need to start to be myself 'cause I'm sick of everybody else. I won't let you bring me down. I will learn to love again. I think I'm everything you hate. Take a shot, baby, show my everything that you've got. Before I run far away, I need to take a holiday. Maybe it's a fall from grace. I gotta find a new place on holiday. I'll set off on a new chase. I gotta see a new face. I need to take a holiday. I don't think I'll ever change. I think I'm gonna stay the same.

It doesn't really make sense, putting it all together, but it felt so good writing all of this down.

Boys Like Girls.

So, last night, I was probably in my room for at least an hour writing down random lyrics to Boys Like Girls songs. I listened to their entire album, "Boys Like Girls."

I loved it. It was probably the most meaningful things I've done to myself for a while.

I don't care if all their songs deal with drugs.

I love them, and they DO mean something.

I'll put what I wrote down later.

I'm going to try this new thing where I don't talk about people behind their backs. Or I won't say "I hate (insert name here)." Or, I will, but just not in a rude way.

Because there's good in everyone.

There is always SOMETHING to be... grateful about?

We'll see how this goes.

SOOOOOO

The Last Song came out on DVD today, and I am super excited to see it.

It's my favorite book, and I almost saw it in theaters, but what do you know.

It's Warren. Movies don't stay in the theaters.

So, I've been waiting for this day for the past 4 months. It's killed me.

Now you know why I'm excited.

It's also nice that I'm seeing it with The Pack.

It'll be amazing.

Even though we'll be bawling in each others' arms.

More thoughts.

I've been thinking. Here are ways to describe me.

-Reading addict.

-Poet.

-Singer. (when I'm alone.)

-Nerd. (I've got the brains, and have been told this many times.)

-Grammar freak.

I'm not saying I don't like the way I am.

Lately, I haven't been able to speak my opinion.

My thoughts are bundled up inside me, and the only way I can let them get by is by writing them down. I wish I had the courage to speak up; the courage to voice my opinion.

I wish I could scream out everything I love, everything I need, everything that matters, everything that bothers me.

With people agreeing with me, supporting my ideas. Supporting my opinions.

I am me, whether I like it or not. I love the way I am.

Do others?

That question sometimes haunts me. I feel unwanted, I feel unimportant.

I know I shouldn't, but regardless of what people tell me, those thoughts still race through my mind.

In a way, I hate it.

Yet, I like how I think differently from everyone else.

Sometimes, though, I wish people thought the same. I wonder if they look at things the way I do. I wonder if they look at things in a positive way.

Or do they think of the rudest thing possible and insult the object or person in their minds?

It's none of my business, how people think, but I often question it.

And hope that they see the world positively.

"So many things become beautiful when you really look."

Let It Pour.

On this rainy day

I just want to be with you.

The drops are falling

Few by few.

You know my one wish

Of kissing in the rain,

So take my hand and come with me,

As long as I'm with you, I feel no pain.

We're all alone

In the middle of the street.

Your eyes locked on mine,

The world feeling complete.

And then you lean towards me,

Kiss me on the cheek.

It's absolutely impossible to get over

Your stunning, perfect physique.

And that's when I realize

There is no one as perfect as you.

It feels as if I'll stay with you forever,

Just like morning grass with its' dew.

We're twirling now

In this beautiful universe.

I can't imagine being happier

And my heart's singing one more verse...

Stay with me now,

My handsome sweetheart.

I will never let you go.

Nothing you do can keep us apart.

So, just know this now,

Before my mind gets too swirled,

That I love you more than anything else,

And that every moment we spend together brightens my world.

Sunset Moderation.

I'm looking at the water

Astonished that I'm there.

The sun's in my eyes,

The wind in my hair.

This sunset tonight

Makes me want to sing.

I want to dance away,

I need to spread my wings.

It finally feels right

To let the world know.

I believe I can make it

On my own.

Poetry.

I'm attempting to write poems...

The Fair.

The bright lights, that one late night.
Going on all the rides, finally feeling alive.
We laughed until we cried
We screamed like someone died.
Never wanting it to end, just being with my friends...
It's days like these that should last forever.

Let's Go.

Come on, come on.

Walk with me. Talk with me.

Let's run around the world. Let's do it 'til we hurl.

I want to hear your thoughts, I want to know your feelings.

I don't care what you say, I just want you to stay.

I need somebody. I don't care if you're a nobody.

Just come on this journey.

We'll do it together... together, forever.

Inspire Me.

I'm tired of sitting.

I'm tired of waiting.

There's so much to do, there's so much hating.

We need to get along.

We need to be strong.

Maybe a group of us can prove them all wrong.

Why do we fight for love?

Why don't we have hope?

This world is coming to an end.

It just needs to stop.

Get off your lazy ass

This moment- we will NOT let pass.

Inspire me, inspire yourself.

You don't know what the future will bring.

Wishing for Love.

We built so much up

And right in front of us, it falls.

We were so happy

All I want to do is bawl.

It's over, it's done.

In a way I'm glad.

I don't care about you,

I want what we had.

Two young lovers, not a care in the world

Does everyone love that way?

Do they always want a hug?

Is their love your drug?

I wish for that day.

The day my dream comes alive.

Love rebounding around us,

Blowing us away.

Knowing that you're there.

And there to stay.

I woke up 45 minutes ago and this day has sucked.

Older brother's outside, mowing the lawn.

Younger brother, mom, and dad are no where to be found.

Not inside, not outside.

The van is gone.

Did they leave a note? Nope.

Did they tell me where they were? Nope.

Do I know when they'll be back? Nope.

Am I surprised? Nope.

I hate being the middlefreakingchild. Sooooo much.

The Fair.

Last night had to be.... beyond great.

We went on basically every ride.

People screamed like they were dying.

They threw up like no other.

They laughed until they cried.

Talk about making great memories.