June 25, 2010

I'm so upset. But, I am better than before.
It only makes this worse that it happened in the past, it's happening now, and it'll most likely happen in the future.
I'm guessing it's because I'm a middle child.

I am being... ignored. Forgotten. I've never felt so lonely in the past few days.
It's always about the younger, or older, sibling. They get all the freaking attention. It just bugs me. She acts like I don't care, like I'm not even living in this house. And I'm sick of it. It's been all this week. Even when I've BEEN home, not out with friends, she acts like a bitch. Maybe it's PMS, maybe it's mid-life crisis, maybe it's because I'm acting like a brat and I just don't realize it. But honestly, I think I've been acting the same for the past... MONTHS.
Always following the rules, being a good child.
I just don't know.

Sometimes I wish I could just run away or be gone. Only to see the reaction on peoples' faces. Would I be missed? Probably. Some more than others. But the ones who I would miss terribly, the ones who have no interest in me, what would they be like?