I want to be the inspiration.

I want to be the inspired.

I want to make a difference.

And I want to do it now.

Goodbye?

I just want to do something memorable.

I want to laugh.

I want to have another "best night of my life."

I swear, everything is more fun at night.

I feel free. Like I could do anything I want, when I want, how I want to. But the world doesn't work that way. Oh well. It's a nice thought.

Lately I've been thinking about the true meaning of goodbye. I read an article in the paper and ever since then, I've been thinking and thinking about it. It isn't a true 'goodbye' unless you're finished, done.

When we say 'goodbye', we usually just mean 'see ya', or 'talk to you later.'

But the thing we don't know is whether any of those are true.

You never know when you'll say goodbye.

When you'll have to let something or someone go.

Or when they just do. Unexpectedly.

Maybe that's why we say it. It could be a goodbye when you're leaving your friend's house or when your parents go to work.

I'm rambling. I don't know, I've just been thinking about it and haven't written in a while.

In a way I want to experience a goodbye just to see what it's like. What it really feels like to leave something/someone, or to be done for good.

But once it's here, I'm sure I will wish it had never happened.

That seems to always happen.

I think I'm finally drawing something that really is coming from my soul. And it feels good. Really good.